However, if there is one thing I learned in the years it
took to get pregnant, it was that certain things are just not in my control. It
is a hard lesson for a control freak like me! I prayed and talked with God
through weeks 37-39, asking for the ability to let go and the guidance to make
the right decisions for my baby and myself. By 39 weeks, I was physically ready
to get that baby out of me: I hadn’t had a full night’s sleep in 8 months
(though that wouldn’t matter once the baby came anyway) and I was worn out from
carrying the baby around. At that point I thought I was ready for whatever my
doctor suggested.
Flash forward to early in the morning of 10/7/13 at my
doctor’s appointment. My blood pressure turned out to be at an all-time high
and despite not even being dilated a centimeter, my doctor wanted to
induce…that day! This threw me for a big loop since I thought an induction, if
needed, would be scheduled for later in the week. I called Jess in a panic and
told him that we had to go to the hospital that morning. He was still driving
into work! By the time he got back home and I got packed, we didn’t arrive at
the hospital until 11 am. Then the wait began…
12:40 pm: I started on medicine to soften my cervix.
4:15 pm: I was 50% effaced and barely 2 cm dilated.
4:40 pm: Pitocin started
8 pm: Contractions had been intensifying for the last hour; the
nurse checked and there was no change in dilation. I was so frustrated and
disheartened by that news. I thought inducing with no dilation was a bad idea
in the first place. My idea of a good labor would have been having the option
to be at home for the first part of it, being able to walk around a bit and not
tied to the hospital bed. This was not what was happening and I was physically
and emotionally exhausted. Again, I just wanted that baby out and to get the
whole thing over with!
9:30 pm: Told Dr. I wanted a c-section now rather than go
through another 12 hours or more of labor and potentially end up having a
c-section anyway. Jess' parents and sister had arrived in the afternoon for the delivery and really supported me in my decision. I know my own parents would have liked to have been there but the Dr.'s decision to induce threw everything off.
10:40 pm: Sweet Pea is here! 7lbs 10 oz and 21 inches long. He was
born with brown hair and stormy blue eyes that we wouldn’t see until a few days
later.
My doctor told me during the c-section that I had made a
good choice because the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck twice.
Though I felt like a major weenie opting for the c-section instead of going
through with the labor, after hearing that I probably would have had to have a
c-section anyway, I felt that God was answering my prayers and protecting Luke
during the delivery.
The recovery from surgery was actually a lot better than I could
have hoped for. Plus, Nana Emerson, Jamie and my parents came to help out
during the first 3 ½ weeks. That helped out tremendously especially since they,
amazingly, all took the night shift so Jess and I could sleep. Ah, memories!
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